Nineteen Weeks

Baby Girl's Stats:
You're halfway there! The top of your uterus (womb) now reaches your belly button and will grow about a centimetre a week. Your baby measures about 14.2cm long from crown to rump and weighs about 240g. She is swallowing amniotic fluid, and her kidneys continue to make urine. Hair on her scalp is sprouting, too. Sensory development reaches its peak this week. The nerve cells serving each of the senses – taste, smell, hearing, seeing and touch – are developing in their specialised areas of the brain. Nerve cell production slows down as existing nerve cells grow larger and make more complex connections. Most mums-to-be start to feel movement (called quickening) between 18 weeks and 20 weeks.

If you've been pregnant before, you'll feel things earlier rather than later. What you may first think is a rumbling stomach may be your baby doing some back flips.  The next 10 weeks or so will be your baby's busiest and most active time, until your uterus gets too crowded.

Mommy's Stats:
How far along?: 19 weeks - a mango & 10oz
Weight gain/loss: have no idea
Symptoms:  nada...and loving it!
Maternity clothes?: gave in and went maternity shopping this past weekend with my mom...and man oh man...the new maternity clothes are so much more comfortable than 4 years ago!  ahhhhhhh!
Stretch marks?: no
Sleep:  major baby boy v. girl dreams
Best moment this week:  the big u/s and finally seeing the baby again.
Food cravings: still loving salad with vinegar and soup soup soup, I can live on that everyday.  When I was in Chicago visiting my family, my mom and I had the best soup ever...golden yam bisque.  OMG!  wow!  I'm still dreaming of it. 
Gender: I can barely type it and believe it...GIRL!  WOW!
Belly button in or out?: in
Movement?: pretty consistent now, and I love it!
Signs of Labor: nope
What I miss?: feeling pretty...that's a reoccuring theme. 
What I'm looking forward to: finally buying stuff for a baby and not calling the baby "it" anymore...she/her is a beautiful sound...now if only we could come up with a name.  Girl names are soooo hard! ::ugh::
Weekly Wisdom: leggings are great!  Why did I fight them so long?! 
Weekly WTF: GIRL and all the "stuff" that goes with it...OMG!  OMG!  OMG!  Oh, and why is ALLLLLLL girl stuff fricking pink!  Where's the purple?!?
Milestones: almost halfway there & now we finally know what we're having!  yippee! :) :)

Classic

So as I was making my rounds of calls to tell all our friends and family the u/s results, when I got to my brother he had the most classic and memorable reaction.  After his initial "what???" he said:

"now instead of worrying about just 1 penis, you'll have to worry about ALL of them".  OMG!  Thanks B for reminding me! lol!

More Tales from the Ultrasound

So when we got to the hospital we got lost on our way to the check-in (took like 4-5 elevator trips), had to backtrack to "register" before we could register again at the desk, then waited what felt like FOREVER to be called (I think it was only 25 minutes though).  When the tech started looking at the baby, everything went so fast...she showed us the bloodflow, brain ventricles, heart ventricles, kidneys, umbilical cord and its bloodflow, the placenta, the cervix, spine, both legs, both arms, hands close enough to count fingers, toes/feet, a frontal face shot, a few profile shots, and on and on we went.  The technology has definitely gotten more advanced from 4 years ago when I had my u/s with little man.  It was no 3D/4D, but cool just the same!  Also...the screen was a large TV screen mounted on the wall instead of all of us crowding around a small u/s screen. 

All the while this was going on, I was waiting for her to slip up and say "he" or "she" or announce the sex as she navigated us through every single body part, and I waited...and I waited and waited.  I think we were both (hubby and I) holding our breath, but still trying to be "in the moment" for all the other baby parts that were being shown to us.  Healthy was, of course, our #1 priority in the u/s...but man were we itching!  It was pretty incredible I must say.  Baby was breech, facing downward, and folded together like a pretzel, legs up to her head.  She even sucked on her fingers a bit while we were watching, and moved enough that I felt it on the outside during the procedure.  So, after what seemed like FOREVER the tech said "would you like to know the sex" and to that I replied "absolutely"...but I wanted to say "hell yeah, finally!".  She said "I think it's a girl", and Ty replied "NO it's a boy" ::uh oh::.  I think I said "really" and she said "yup, do you see that line, that's the labia, and there's no penis between those legs, congrats, it's a girl".  I was speechless...and still am in shock. 

 I am so overwhelmed by the thought if it, and all the "stuff" that comes with a girl, I'm not sure how to react.  After the initial shock and saying "no it's a boy" a few times, Ty came around and is now elated about his baby sister.  Me, I'm still processing...ask me in a few day!  Wow just wow! 

Here are the u/s pix that the tech gave us.  Amazing to say the least!

the frontal face picture, nose in center, eyes are the dark spots and the mouth is the slit on right

 the foot picture...love this!

 The "money shot" a picture of the baby's bum...legs and absence of a penis are seen (lol!)

 And some great profile pictures of our little girl - this one has the legs folded up

 that's the arm farthest away from you in this picture

 close-up

We love her already!

It's a...(drumroll please)

We are completely shocked & elated!  I had completely convinced myself it was a boy, even picking out a name (bye bye Nolan Thomas) and bedding (trains...how cute!).  Now we have to shift our focus, start the name search, think purple (no pink for this purple-loving gal!), and start saving our pennies for clothes, prom dresses and a wedding ::gulp::  Wow!  Just Wow!  (more detailed u/s info and the ever-popular pictures of my insides to come later...stay tuned!)

Turkey Day & a 5K

Much to my mom's chagrin, hubby and I signed up for my hometown 5K race the day of Thanksgiving.  I believe it's been 6 years straight that I've run a Turkey Day race, so I wasn't breaking the streak because I was knocked up.  I ran a 5K when I was pregnant with Ty (in 2006), but I was 8 weeks less preggo at the time (about 10 weeks). 18 weeks wasn't going to stop me.  My hubby wasn't all that excited about getting up early to complete the run, but I certainly appreciated his company.  I also appreciated him reining me in, because I am a competitive gal, and I wanted to go faster and faster, and keep passing people.  Hubby kept me in check, and we completed it with a pretty respectable time, given I'm almost "half baked".  Baby was all well and good, kicking away later that day.  My mom survived the stress too,  I might add, and I felt great!

Thanksgiving was relaxing and yummy.  I was very thankful to spend it in Chicago with my family.  We have a lot to be thankful for this year!  I have a great hubby, an amazing son, a baby on the way (and a few days away from knowing the sex of said baby), a great support system of family & friends and we both have and love our jobs.  We are very blessed this year.  Bring on 2011...it's gonna be a great year!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING FROM OUR FAMILY OF 3.5 :)

Just in time for Thanksgiving, LO is a sweet potato ~ Eighteen Weeks

Lovebug's Stats:

 Your baby is about 12cm long from crown to rump and she weighs about 190g. Her chest moves up and down to mimic breathing. Her blood vessels are visible through her thin skin, and her ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from her head a bit. Soon you may get glimpse of all the things your baby is getting up in your uterus (womb). A mid-pregnancy ultrasound scan, called an anomaly scan, is usually done between 18 and 22 weeks. This assesses your baby's growth and development and checks whether the gestational age is accurate.

During this scan, you might see your baby kick, flex, reach, roll, or even suck her thumb. See if your partner can come along to share the thrilling sight of your baby, and ask if you can have images from the scan.

If you're having a girl, the vagina, uterus (womb), and fallopian tubes are in place. If it's a boy, his genitals will be distinct and recognisable. From now on, when you lie down, it's best to lie on your side, or at least partly tilted to one side. When you lie flat on your back, your uterus can compress a major vein. This may make you feel dizzy, because less blood can return to your heart. Try placing a pillow behind you or under your hip or upper leg for comfort.

Mommy's Stats:
How far along?: 18 weeks
Weight gain/loss: don't know...but it feels like a million!  I'm definitely bigger earlier with the second LO
Symptoms:  I can't tell what's my sinus infection...and what's pregnancy.  I have horrible headaches (have one right now actually!).
Maternity clothes?: all pants...I've given up on regular pants since I carry so low.  Some shirts.
Stretch marks?: no
Sleep:  the same.  Waking to pee 1 time, and frequent headaches and weird dreams keep me restless. 
Best moment this week:  scheduling my big u/s...less than a week away!
Food cravings: nothing specific this week.  I do have aversions though...hate chicken.
Gender: still boy.  I'm so convinced.
Belly button in or out?: in
Movement?: lots.  Even sometimes during the day now when I'm working.  Hubby also felt it from the outside this week, and I do all the time.
Signs of Labor: nope
What I miss?: knowing what it feels like to feel "good".  If it's not pregnancy...it's a cold.  ugh!
What I'm looking forward to: my u/s of course...and going home for Thanksgiving.  Thanksgiving is my most favorite holiday ever...it's all about family and food and I love it!
Weekly Wisdom: give it up girl...you're pregnant...embrace the belly. You can't hide it anymore.  Be proud.  This is easier said than done (although see picture to the right of me at 18 weeks...I'm embracing it today!)
Weekly WTF: please cold...release me!!!!  2 weeks of torture are enough thank you.
Milestones: randoms saying congrats and u/s approaching!

Bye Bye Who-ha!

I was in the shower this evening and, as I was preparing to coif the "nether-regions", when I realized that I could no longer "see" said "region".  Ah the joys of pregnancy.  If I bend over and peer OVER the growing belly, I can barely see to coif...but it's just a matter of time until it...and my feet...completely disappear.  ::sigh::  I guess a good brazilian is in order!

In other more exciting news, I felt the baby move from the outside again today, and so did hubby.  It wasn't really "kicking" more like a "bump" or hiccup from the inside.  But...HOW COOL anyway.  I just love this part of pregnancy.  Pregnancy mostly sucks ass...but feeling the baby move...priceless!!!

Baby Digs my Nuclear Lectures

So today I'm sitting in my prep bell, block 4, and diligently working on grading a test.  All of a sudden, I felt the baby move.  This is a cool thing all by itself, because I normally don't get the pleasure of feeling said little one moving during the day.  Normally, my boring droll and lectures to my HS students just lulls this lovebug to sleep.  I normally don't get the pleasure of "feeling" movement unless I'm horizontal on the couch, which usually occurs between the hours of 9-10:30pm each night.  I was shocked baby was moving, so I put my hand on my lower belly...and...I LITERALLY FELT THE MOVMEMENT...like from the outside!!  I thought it would be quite a while until I felt it in that way, and I'm sure it won't happen again for a few more weeks...but how cool was that!?  I wish my hubs was around to feel it too.  Unfortunately...it was fleeting.  I haven't felt the kiddo since.  It must have been since the babe was so close to the outside of my belly that I could feel the swimming.  It was quite a moment!!!! 

I guess the baby is into nuclear energy...since that was my lecture today.  Maybe it interests him/her how something as simple as an atom can be so powerful!  :)  I know I think it's cool!  I know, I know...beware of the science geek! But I wear my geek-badge proudly thank you:)

No Hidding This Anymore

Today I went "belly out" and let it all hang out in all it's belly glory.  I don't think I'm hiding this belly anymore!!!!  Even one of the janitors said to me this morning..."have you found out what you're having yet"? Guess I'm "out".  :)

In other exciting news...I scheduled the big anatomy ultrasound yesterday at my dr appt.  Ultrasound is scheduled for Monday, November 29th at 3:30pm!  After a very "normal" dr appt (you know...pee in a cup, get on the scale, talk to my midwife about any concerns, blah blah blah)...my midwife made a sex guess...she thinks it's a boy.  Join the club!  Heartbeat was in the 130's and all looks good.  I opted out of the quad screen.  After speaking to my midwife, the results of the screen wouldn't affect my decision to keep this baby, and we can get most of this info at the u/s coming up...so what's the point of making myself more crazy than I already am about this pregnancy.  So that's that...no quad screen.  The next "tests" aren't until 28 weeks, the lovely glucose test (gag me!).  So...we're moving along!

 

Seventeen Weeks ~ A Stinky Onion ~ Literally!

Lovebug's Stats:

Don't be too shocked but... your baby is EVEN bigger than it was last week, not to mention getting cuter, and smarter every day! As you’ve come to expect, there’s no shortage of growth and development this week: your fantastic little bean stalk has added yet another half inch to their overall height-- making them nearly half a foot long! Their little limbs have reached (or are within one week of) their relative proportions, and will continue to grow evenly with the rest of the body after this week. Reactive listening has begun for your baby, even though their ears are not yet structurally complete or fully functional. Meanwhile, different parts of their astonishingly complex brain are developing to process your little one’s hearing and other senses, (you know, sight, smell, taste and touch). Mind boggling factoid of the week: if you’re having going to have a little girl, her ovaries have already produced millions of primordial egg cells, which, within a few weeks, will develop into actual eggs! Phew… just wait till she’s a teenager eh?

Mommy's Stats:

How far along?: 17 weeks!  So close to halfway!  Wow!

Weight gain/loss: don't know...don't care
Symptoms:  GAS GAS GAS!  Sorry honey!  He literally tells me to go to bed early so he doesn't have to deal with the stink-bombs!  I blame the baby...of course!  Constipations isn't helping things.  Headaches are also a problem this week.

Maternity clothes?: pretty much 80/20 now.  I am so excited to see my mom at Thanksgiving...because I need wardrobe help stat!

Stretch marks?: belly balm is in full-effect now, as is shower exfoliation and lotion.  Pregnancy + cold = itchy girl!  Pass the lotion please!
Sleep:  Little man has been sick so that = no sleep for mommy.  It's not the new baby's fault this time though.
Best moment this week:  my longest run since being pregnant...5 miles!  (Mom, don't freak out...it took me forever!)
Food cravings: vinegar anything, I also love vanilla soy milk ::insert hubby's gagging sounds here::, I love veggies and fruits and hate chicken (blech).
Gender: Still thinking blue...but the answer is so close!
Belly button in or out?: in
Movement?: at night only.  This baby loves the sound of my voice and the fact that I'm constantly in motion teaching crazy HS kids.  Baby sleeps all day long (that I can tell)
Signs of Labor: nope
What I miss?: feeling pretty
What I'm looking forward to:  definitely the anatomy scan - possibly 2 weeks away!
Weekly Wisdom: Maybe I should call this the weekly mantra...repeat after me ::you are not fat...you're pregnant:: repeat!
Weekly WTF: how can gas smell this bad?!  seriously!
Milestones: as sad as this is my coworker said "man you're gonna be HUGE this time".  Thanks co-irker!

And here I am...week 17.  It's all baby now...no more bloat to blame my belly on!  And, yes, it's much bigger in person.  Trust me...and my co-irker! :)

I'm Marking my Calendar

TODAY I FEEL GREAT!  I'm so relieved to FINALLY be through all the pregnancy nausea, exhaustion & crankiness!  YIPPEE 2ND TRI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Houston...we've got movement!

Today was the day I knew FOR SURE that I was feeling our little lovebug move...and not just move...kick!  It's been going on since 2pm or so, right after I had a fabulous lunch at Ruby Tuesdays with a good work friend.  This kid has good taste! 

Aside:  Has anyone tried the Ruby Tuesday's salad buffet?? TO DIE FOR! They make their own croutons...yes folks...they're fresh.  They were even warm, and were crunchy on the outside and soft on the inside.  It was heaven in a little cube!  Highly recommended.  I must also point out that they had chick peas too!  I died and went to heaven.  Oh...and did I mention vinaigrette too! Ruby Tuesdays salad = happy pregnant lady! Simple pleasures.  Now if only I was smart enough to bring a baggie in my purse so I could stash away some of those heaven cubes! ::sigh::

Anyway, back to the movement...

Little lovebug has been moving all day and it was all confirmed by the home doppler, when I felt movement, the doppler registered a kick or movement.  Whoot whoot! 

It's fabulous!  Now if we could only stop calling this baby "it"!!

Sweet Sixteen

Lovebug's Stats:
Your baby is now some 10cm long from crown to rump, about the size of an avocado, and weighs about 100g. In the next three weeks she'll go through a tremendous growth spurt, doubling her weight and adding centimetres to her length.

In or out of the uterus (womb), babies are playful creatures. Yours may already have discovered her first toy, the umbilical cord, which she'll enjoy pulling and grabbing. Sometimes she may even clutch it so tight that less oxygen gets through. She'll let go of the cord before she starts to go without what she needs.

Your baby's head is more erect than it has been, and her eyes have moved closer to the front of her head. Her circulatory system and urinary tract are in full working order, and she's inhaling and exhaling amniotic fluid through her lungs. Your baby is immersed in amniotic fluid, which is protecting her as she grows in the amniotic sac.

 Mommy's Stats:
How far along?: 16 weeks and feeling fine...finally! 
Weight gain/loss: I think about 8-10 lbs (gulp)...but I was under-weight to begin with so the body packs on the lbs early (or at least that's my excuse)
Symptoms:  this week I've had acne issues (both face and body :( ), itchy skin, headaches & growing pains...but the nausea is officially on vacation (yippee!)
Maternity clothes?: I'm about 70/30.  I do have a few pants (like the ones I'm wearing now) that are a size up and can be worn with a rubberband, without stretching across my ever-growing ass and looking hella-bad!
Stretch marks?: nope!  I'm starting my exfoliation routine, and picked up some pregnancy-specific lotion.  It worked with Ty.  Here's hoping.
Sleep:  not great!  Peeing wakes me frequently, and I've become a light sleeper...which is new for me.  I am also going to bed soooo early, that I frequently wake up at 4-4:30am.
Best moment this week:  This was the best...and the worst.  We ordered a home doppler because, let's face it...I'm a neurotic IF.  Too much time had passed since my last Dr appt and I was going batty.  So when it came I was sooooo excited.  Then after 3 tries, we couldn't find the heartbeat.  I was ready to pack up and go to the emergency room.  On try 4...I got it...a healthy and strong 143 bpm.  (THANK GOD!)  Now I'm excited to use it again!
Food cravings: nothing much these days.  I'm back to eating healthy...and I'm back at the gym 5 days a week...which has really helped my energy and my attitude!  ya gym!
Gender: I'm always convinced it's a boy...still am this week! 
Belly button in or out?: in
Movement?: not really much.  Sometimes at night when I'm on the couch I feel flutters.  I can hear the movement on the doppler though!  so cool!!!
Signs of Labor: nope
What I miss?: This week it's being able to go a full work day without my feet killing me!  I used to ROCK the hot, tall heels proudly everday, all day.  Now, I pack flip flops or flats for the trip home, to run errands or to walk into the gym (pathetic for a shoe-obsessed gal like me...just pathetic!!!)
What I'm looking forward to: movement! 
Weekly Wisdom: I'm not a Dr...I'm not great with the doppler...I need to chill and be patient!  Baby is fine!  Repeat it 5 times now ...baby is fine baby is fine....
Weekly WTF: I'm a camel...I swear!  I drink 14-20 glasses of water between the hours of 9am - 9pm. 
Milestones: home doppler success & completing month 4 of the pregnancy!

Struggling to Connect

 P.S. This is not me! :)

This pregnancy has been different in so many ways to when I was KU with the Ty-man.  For starters, all these symptoms are new OR way worse:

1. nausea
2. exhaustion
3. body acne
4. gas!!
5. huge ass!
6.  headaches
7. shortness of breath & racing heart

On top of all of that fabulous loveliness...I have been struggling to "connect" with this little guy/girl.  I don't know if it's the IF holding me back, and the idea that at any moment we could lose him/her.  I guess it could be the fact that the motion that I "thought" was motion, has since disappeared, then reappeared, then disappeared again (was that my stomach rumbling, or gas, or the baby, or....).  Or could it be the fact that I don't know what I'm having yet...could that help the connection??? 

I, of course, have my own theories.  I believe that it's a mixture of the bitterness of IF and all the struggles we went through that has forced me to be so cautious that it's a scary concept to be ::gasp:: just happy, coupled with the fact that I'm completely wrapped up in my already created family and the time it takes to give my all to them, and a little dash of straight fear in there somewhere.  I am quite afraid of lots these days.  Could something go wrong?  What if I don't love this one as much as my 1st? (I hear that one is normal). How will I handle TWO KIDS?!?  Will I still have time for what I like to do when we are tag-teaming little ones?  Will I still be able to find time to have a great relationship with my fabulous husband when we're busy changing diapers and dealing with an energetic toddler?  How will we get it all done, and afford it all, before the LO arrives?!  I'm just so overwhelmed by worry.

My hubby says I overanalyze things too much, and that I try to over-plan and over-control things.  Since I can't control what's happening to my body, or how my LO reacts in there...it's driving me bonkers (If I could...I think he/she could drive me to drink...heavily...oh how I miss you alcohol!!!!).  He's probably right, damn it I hate how well he knows me.  I just hope all this mind F-ing takes a vacation so I can finally enjoy the miracle of this baby!  

Fifteen Weeks

Lovebug's Stats:
Your growing baby now measures about 4 inches long, crown to rump, and weighs in at about 2 1/2 ounces (about the size of an apple). She's busy moving amniotic fluid through her nose and upper respiratory tract, which helps the primitive air sacs in her lungs begin to develop. Her legs are growing longer than her arms now, and she can move all of her joints and limbs. Although her eyelids are still fused shut, she can sense light. If you shine a flashlight at your tummy, for instance, she's likely to move away from the beam. There's not much for your baby to taste at this point, but she is forming taste buds. Finally, if you have an ultrasound this week, you may be able to find out whether your baby's a boy or a girl! (Don't be too disappointed if it remains a mystery, though. Nailing down your baby's sex depends on the clarity of the picture and on your baby's position. He or she may be modestly curled up or turned in such a way as to "hide the goods.")

Mommy's Stats:
How far along?: 15 weeks! 
Weight gain/loss: no clue...and not interested in knowing
Symptoms:  gas!  Pass the tums please!
Maternity clothes?: yup.  Going shopping this weekend for more.  My wardrobe is pretty lame these days.
Stretch marks?: nope...but given how big my ass is...God knows what's going on back there!
Sleep:  Usually can make it till 10 or 10:30pm now...I've gained an hour!  Whoopie!
Best moment this week: NBR...voting!  It really makes me feel like I'm participating in my community and my state.
Food cravings: peaches & anything with vinegar or BBQ sauce.  Weird..but true!
Gender: The new "old wives tale" I heard this week was to look for a bloodshot V in the bottom whites of my eyes to predict the gender (weird I know).  My "V" is in my right eye, which supposedly means boy...and left means it's a girl!  Who knows. 
Belly button in or out?: in
Movement?: yes...but rare!  I think I might have an anterior placenta.
Signs of Labor: nope
What I miss?: This week it was back to alcohol.  I went to a Halloween party with our neighbors on Saturday and being sober sucked!
What I'm looking forward to: Energy!!!!  I see glimpses of it 4 days/week (like tonight) and I long for the ability to participate in my family again after working a full day. 
Weekly Wisdom: I'm addicted to coffee.  There's no doubt.  When I have a half and half coffee in the morning...my day is all that much better.  Man...caffeine is a drug...my drug...and I'm okay with it!
Weekly WTF: How does the local Becoming Mom store know I'm pregnant?  No seriously...do they have ESP or something?  It's creepy...not a mailing for 4 years...and now...one shows up in the mail.  Who told them??  Weird!
Milestones: A random co-worker I didn't tell I was pregnant said "congratuations" to me today.  I guess I'm finally "looking" pregnant to strangers...which is exciting! :)

Here I am this morning 11/02 with my belly & my ever-growing behind.  Must God make me balanced?!?  Geez!

Preparing a Big Brother

Ty is so excited to be a big brother!  He's old enough to understand that there's a baby in Mommy's belly, and when I'm not feeling well he says "is the baby making you sick Mommy?".  He's young enough, however, so that he doesn't tell randoms I'm pregnant, or friends we aren't ready to tell our news to. He is very excited to help.  We are obviously a little concerned about the transition, and how he might react to a new addition.  As my mom told me she felt when she was pregnant with my brother, I worry I won't love the second one as much as my little prince.  But as my mom also said...love is endless...and we will!  We have decided to do our very best to help our little man be ready for the new addition by doing the following:

1.  We plan to sign him up for sibling classes at the hospital to prepare him for the baby & the hospital setting
2.  I want to get him a doll to have him practice on.  Mike isn't too "keen" on this idea, but you know I'll win:)
3.  We have a few "Big Brother" books that we try to read to him often.  Here are two of my personal favorites to read!

4.  We lay in bed at bedtime and talk to him about the baby..
5.  We constantly show him pictures when he was a baby.  Here's a throwback :)

I read somewhere that if siblings see their own baby pictures they can understand they were our baby once, and it can help them understand it's now this baby's turn.   

Hopefully he'll be ready...and out of pull-ups :)  Hopefully we'll be ready too (gulp!).  Having two is pretty scary.  It's all I ever wanted when going through our IF struggles, and I'm elated to have the chance to be a Mommy of two.  But...it doesn't mean that I'm not apprehensive that I'll be able to do it...and do it well.  But I do know this...Ty's going to be a great big brother!